Sometimes the opposite of what you ask for comes into your life not to punish you or spite you or deprive you, but to amplify your desire for it, to wake you up to how real your need for it is.
If you are too laid-back and talk yourself into the idea that you’ve got “plenty of time”, life corrects those symptoms of procrastination by sending you the opposite of what you want. It is for you to snap out of too much willingness to put up with missing that what you treasure so much. It is for you to assert your self and to appreciate your self, even appreciate your drive for it and your need (!) for it.
NJ,
full moon in September 2016
Nanda Jurela 